Nominations, endorsements and dilemmas

There is a colleague who is not very popular with us. I have written about her previously. A few reprimands and warnings from our supervisor and a lot of counseling from different sources and this year, she seems so much better.

Last year, I used to spend sleepless nights over her and her attitude and her interactions. This year, I have become changed in  my attitude towards her. I prayed over it. I did not work hard from my side to improve relations but prayed hard and let it go. This year her relations with all in our department have improved.

Recently she took a few days off for a personal issue. She came back to work this week and has gone back to the taunt, indirect talk, disrespecting supervisor and colleagues after this leave period. Maybe something traumatic in her life set her back. I will soon be leaving the department, but I wanted my relations with her and with others to improve, so she can settle down with everyone and learn to trust and I am trying to help her.

There was a nomination in our college to a Distinguished Achievement Award. Anyone could nominate anyone. Something directed me to nominate her, this colleague for  this award. This was about 3 months back. A couple of weeks back, I heard back from the committee, that they had accepted her nomination and I needed to put together a package with a lot of letters and stuff, so a complete package could go to the main office where another committee would look through the nominations.

I am now running around trying to put the packet together. I told my supervisor, who is the colleague’s supervisor too that  X’s nomination had been accepted and that I was working on the package. My supervisor told me she was not willing to write a letter of endorsement for the colleague and also advised me to let go- not to bother about submitting the package.

The colleague is not someone I like very much but when my supervisor told me not to bother about sending the packet to the main office, something told me inside, I just had to do it. There seem to be too many coincidences and nudges here. I am praying about it. It is hard work, getting a package in place. Let’s see where it goes.