Writing after a break

Its been two months’.

I have a bent thumb on my right hand that came on in September. I have been in so much pain that I haven’t felt anytime in my life. Days of pain that were unrelenting. Early in September, my husband returned to Doha to get his clearances done. I remember driving to the Kochi airport to drop him at the now derelict airport. There was this special one taking off that day from the airport.

I returned home in two hours ( we live about two hours from the place of the International Airport). I cannot remember how soon after that my pain started. And it happened so slowly that I didn’t realise until the pain caught up with me and I could not light the gas burner. I lost the power of my right thumb. I cannot remember if something cracked on my bones but I am left with a bent thumb now. There is a contracture there.

I thought it was a remnant of the cat bite on my palm from July as the bite was severe enough to have damaged my tendons though the tendons had healed well. It was only last week that when my husband took me to an orthoped cousin that an X-ray that he ordered showed that I have degenerative changes in my thumb joints.

Oh my God ! Degenerative changes? In my head, even 51 birthdays had not convinced me that I was on the other side of the half century. Age had finally caught up and my first reaction was sadness. It never struck me that I could have osteoarthritis. How the proud have fallen! That was how my thoughts went. IT took me more than a week to get rid of my depression. I have always thought that I would remain young for as long as I lived. I needed humility and boy, was I humbled.

And then the pain started in all my fingers, both in my right and left hands. And then pain in my right shoulder started. I could not almost use my entire right hand.

More depression followed. And that’s why I haven’t been writing.

12 thoughts on “Writing after a break

    1. Not yet BC but I am healing with God’s help. He really works miracles BC and I am able to type again but have realised that we need to understand that our bodies are a temple for God and need to be taken care of. God bless you, BC

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  1. Oh no, Susie!! I’m so sorry to hear you have arthritis! I know it is not easy to deal with! Sometimes a heating pad helps me. I’m glad you got it looked at, so at least you know what you are dealing with now. Yeah, old age creeps up on the best of us. I will be 60 in Feb. And I can NOT believe it! I will really be old then!


  2. Dear Susie – I just cannot “like” this post, no matter how long it took to write it with your pain. How awful to read this is the reason you have not been here in the blogosphere. I knew you had the trouble with the bite from Sunshine and that slowed you until the damage healed somewhat, but I just thought you were still getting acclimated to your surroundings, etc. You should not strain your hands and see if you get some heated gloves. They are available on Amazon if you search for heated gloves if you are interested or I can send you a website that sells battery-operated clothing. The warmth would help you I am sure. My mom had arthritis in many places in her body as the result of the car accident at age 11 and the 42 orthopedic operations and warmth was helpful to her arthritis. Perhaps the warm gloves would be soothing … also, if you are on the computer or your phone, think about getting Dragon voice-activated software … you speak the words and they are on the screen. Luckily your stint at school is done – of all the other things that happened during your time at school year… you sure didn’t need anything else to happen. Take good care of yourself Susie.


  3. Timelesslady says:

    Hi Susie, I was so glad to see you had a post, but then saddened by the reason you haven’t been writing. I hope that despite the degenerative nature of the diagnosis you have found a bit of relief.


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