Conventionally we are supposed to have two seasons- summer and rainy ( monsoon). But I like to think of the months of September and October here as the Fall season, preparatory of the new year to come. The Fall of this year into the depths of the deep. The weather is pleasant and nice, very comfortable.
The last year has seemed like I have nothing to show for it in the worldly way. No job, no income, no family, nothing.
On the spiritual front, I have moved forward a lot.
- I have become strong. Stronger than before. I still cry but I cry with a hymn. I don’t know if that makes sense but when I feel sad, I sing a hymn. My models are Paul and Silas singing hymns in prison.
- I am trying to find out verses that mention praise in the Bible, so that I know how to praise God using God’s word.
- I have put my prayer requests in for the year, and will not look at them to see if they have come to fruition. I know they will. In God’s time.
- I have reconnected with classmates from college and seem to have new friendships building up.
- I pray everyday with my family members over the phone and say a blessing over my children and my husband every day. A big achievement for me as we are a embarrassed family. We feel embarrassed to say out what we need before each other and God. But we are doing it, baby steps. The Fall season has made me want to come and take stock of what we have and what we have given up- what I have given up is worrying and overthinking. Now I know where to take my stuff and which bank account to deposit my rubbishy thoughts in.
Things will change. Change is constant. I am stable, I love it here. I wish my husband were here with me but he is happy where he is and that makes me happy too. Everyone asks me what I do the whole day. To the outside person, it seems I should be bored and not have anything to do. Actually being with God every day in a more meaningful way, keeps me so full and occupied that I often wish I had more hours in the day.
I am reading and reading this book written by Anglo Indian writer Ruskin Bond called “Crazy times with Uncle Ken”.
One of the chapters has a list of proverbs created by the author’s grandmother which she had put up on her pantry door in Dehradun, a small town on the foothills of the Indian Himalayas. Some are funny and some make you think. Here they are:
- Light supper make long lives.
2. Better a small fish than an empty dish.
3. There is skill in all things, even in making porridge.
4. Eating and drinking should not keep men from thinking.
5. Dry bread at home is better than roast meat abroad.
6. A good dinner sharpens the wit and softens the heart.
7. Let not your tongue cut your throat. ( I didn’t understand this one, but all the others seem simple home truths and commonsense. “
Let me know if you understand the last one or have proverbs you or a loved one has made up but has life lessons, any of us can use.
Its the end of August. The monsoon is almost over and we have had good weather. Rain and sun. Good for the plants and for us.
Corona is on the rise in Kerala. Well, it never went down. Almost 30,000 recorded cases here every day. Maybe much much more. People have learned to keep quiet and consequently even not going to the doctors if they have suspected corona. My family back in Kochi were all sick with fever for about 10 days, starting with the toddler, my nephew to my father, the eldest. Looking at their symptoms, they might very well have had corona. They didn’t test or suspect, so they didn’t know. They are all partially vaccinated. In India we have two vaccinations to complete the dose.
We celebrated my sister’s 50th birthday in August and my father’s 82nd birthday too. My husband is still in Doha and doing well. He loves the warm weather and his health has improved greatly because of no job related stress and him being back at the job he loves.
I am here at my flat and with my cat and plants and house. I like the quiet times. I have come not not relish drama. I prefer to be a house body than to be involved in drama. I spend my day in quiet times with the Lord. Catching up with Bible reading and trying to get a semblance of discipline in my life. I stopped the outdoor walks because it is more stressful looking out for snakes and beings that come out when its dark. My exercises are within the house. I am leaning to pray. Not just the ” God bless —-” type prayers but from the heart. I am trying to be genuine and controlling my tongue. It is a relief to not have to talk so much. I am learning.
Late in June, had a call from a Medical College near here( about 200 km away), that they wanted a person for the teaching of Community Medicine,taking me by surprise as my age is now on the wrong side of 50 and jobs are few.
I was ready to join of course as — well, I was ready, ever since I completed my Masters last year. I asked for an online teaching type of job because of the distance and having just settled here, I didn’t want to move in a hurry. Terms were agreed upon and I had to make one physical appearance there before I claimed my job.
So I travelled last week till there and signed some papers. My parents accompanied me there. I was glad to take them along, they had been cooped up inside their home since early 2020. The trip was long but we made it and back.
Once home, I had to send some more papers to them and that’s when I found out that my MD degree had not been registered with the Medical Council here. So then began a mad frenzy to gather documents required to get my MD registered. The penalty was huge and ignorance of the law was not considered or accepted as a good reason for the delay in registration. I just got the registration documents submitted now and am waiting. In the meanwhile, my job hangs in balance.
I have opened my laptop after three months. Work and chores kept me away from blogging. And well, life.
After about a year, our life train seems to be back on the track again, from where it often had seemed like the train had fallen off the rails on many occasions. Through it all, my Lord Jesus has been faithful.
1.No corona yet.
2. No corona in immediate relatives, yet.
3. Husband’s job situation seems to be improving.
4. His confidence at work and the new place seems to be up too.
5. I am getting better at washing dishes by hand.
6. Plus, inspired by my friend Linda Schaub, I have started walks – around Kottayam.
On the minus
- Going back to Doha again, early July, which will disrupt all our activities.
- Husband’s health having ups and downs.
- Moving anyplace outside Kottayam, brings up them eyebrows. The community here is closeknit and everyone expects to be up to date about everyone else’s business.